Today was one of those days. I told Warner something 3 times today before it made me realize God had a lesson for me to learn. Sweet boy isn’t even 9 months old and he is trying so hard to walk. YALL, I die. Those chunky little legs of his wobble so much, but he is determined to move between every piece of furniture in this house, with tons of bumps and bruises along the way. Today, in frustration, I said ‘Warner, stop trying so hard to be bigger than you are, buddy, just work hard on what you know and can do right now!’ Obviously, he didn’t understand a word of what I said as he was sobbing from a pretty good wipe-out, but I certainly felt that sucker punch to the gut as I realized that the ‘lesson’ I was trying to communicate was actually for me. People told me this would happen, I should have known…
To be honest, I’ve been discontent and robbed of joy in my business (I mean, I should be Colin Cowie or Mindy Weiss by now, right?!), our current house renovations, relationships I’m cultivating, and the list goes on. I’m trying too hard to walk when I need to learn to have sturdy legs that can support my whole body to take me to all these dreams I’ve envisioned for all these areas of my life to flourish the way I’ve ‘planned’ for them to in my head.
Got it, message received.
I laughed as I’ve thought so much about blogging lately and planned my cookie cutter editorial calendar (to begin next week, stay tuned!).. and certainly I wasn’t going to start with a personal story, because no branding expert would tell me to write about this! 😊 But, we all need this reminder:
Photo: Live as a Lily
My prayer is that this made you laugh/ smile, and that it would serve as encouragement to someone. Be grateful for where you are right now, and stop exhausting yourself to get to the next big thing. If we believe God numbers our days, we would operate a lot more freely in the here and now, trusting that there is purpose in today’s tasks.
Fellow business owners, work hard and celebrate the victories of right now. Surely they are building you up and preparing you for greater things than you could have EVER imagined.
To fellow mamas, my friends going through tough breakups, those of you struggling with infertility, my friends anxiously waiting for their baby to be born, for a wedding day to come, to be done with school or away from your current job, or whatever it is, and you’re having a day like mine …. take a deep breath and trust that God will give you what you need, when you need it because He LOVES you. Anddd, if you’re like me, go pour yourself a big ol’ glass of wine as the work day comes to an end. 🙂